TEAM SHAUNA

HURRAY!!! Shauna's Done With Chemo!!!

2009-09-07T17:07:00.005-06:00

Thursday, September 10 is Shauna's last Chemo and we are ready to CELEBRATE!!!!!!!! We are going to have an end of chemo ice cream party on Monday the 14th at 6:00, it will be a Rick and Shauna's house 607 S Allison Way in Kaysville. Everyone who would like to celebrate with us is welcome to come anytime between 6 & 8 p.m. We hope to see you there!!!

Shauna has requested that everyone she has ever known be there so make sure to mark your calendar;)!!!!!!

Memorial Day 4-Wheel Trip

2009-06-04T21:40:00.001-06:00

Isaac, Josh, Shauna, Jake

Back to Life!!!!

2009-06-04T20:39:00.005-06:00

Sorry I haven't blogged in so long but I have been totally enjoying my life since radiation ended almost 4 weeks ago. It seems like longer we have done so much in that time. My skin peeled atleast twice and some areas 3 times but I am totally over that part. My skin looks normal and healthy which at one point I didn't think would ever happen again. My blood counts are almost entirely "recovered" which is pretty incredible. I still have some minor swelling in my right arm and hand but they don't think it's lymphedema and should improve with time. I have to keep reminding myself that I have been through something very difficult and allow myself time to heal.
I have been on the Tamoxifen 3 weeks and it is fine. The hotflashes are noticable but not as bad as on the terrible chemo drugs. Those were like nuclear heat plumes!

I have decided that every drug and little thing they tell you has it's purpose and chemo has been around long enough that you should just do what they tell you. I told the Dr. at my last chemo that I was irritated with the weight gain and she said OK let's go without the steriod this time(they give to everyone on just about any chemo drug.) I had a migrain for 2 days and a kidney infection and just felt awful. I won't make that mistake again I will just have to live with it. It's a minor price to pay to feel good and have so few side affects.

We have been doing yard work which has been hard but so much fun to see it come together. Rick has done all the hard parts but I still think it's been theraputic for him too. He is such a good husband!!! We are celebrating our 16th Anniversary next week and I am so glad to be here to celebrate our family!

Now I continue my chemo drug Herceptin every 3 weeks. I am not counting or anything but I have 5 left, I finish on Sept. 10th. Even though these aren't difficult I will be so excited for that. I am also trying really hard to grow hair but it's not working! I have special syrums, scalp massage, etc. but I would take any suggestions!

I constantly think about all of the people who have helped us to this point and I don't know what we would have done without all those who helped hold our family toghether in so many ways. My friend (who had cancer) said at the begining, "Shauna this is a gift." I have to say that it is. My life before cancer seems so niave compared to now. Rick and I have learned so many things about living. As most people know things still happen even though you're going through something hard. Computers still crash, kids get the stomach flu, or the memorable emergency appendectomy but it's life... and I am so glad to be a part of it!
Love- Shauna

Race Day!! May 9th

2009-04-27T15:25:00.001-06:00

I am so excited for May 9th, Race for the Cure at Gateway!! It also will mean radiation is over. So I can't wait for both. Anyone that wants to can still register
at www.komenslc.org, the group name is "joggin for jugs." It starts at 8:30am, Rick will be at the back of the line with all the strollers. I think I will go with him unless I have to go ahead for some reason. We will see, it should be really fun!
Everything else is going fine. Radiation has made me tired, burned, and even more tired. As of today I have 9 "zaps" left. The onlcologist said it would make me more tired than chemo and I didn't believe him so now he's getting the last laugh. I can easily deal with tired. We have managed to go camping the last 2 weekends so it's not too bad.
At my next chemo (May 7th) I will be starting tamoxifen which I am not happy about. It does have side affects but I will have to get used to them because I will be on it for 5 years. It blocks cancer cell growth especially during the first 5 years to prevent recurrence. Let's all hope anyway!
I hope everyone is well, we are so thankful for all our friends and family helping us to this finish line!!! Much Love- Shauna

2009-04-13T13:38:00.002-06:00

I hope everyone had a Happy Easter! We did!
Radiation is going fine, I have figured out it does have sde effects but they aren't terrible...yet. The fatigue isn't too bad yet. I have what they call "chording" down my arm to the wrist and even on top of my hand which feels like scar tissue and it burns, hurts,and stretches when I use my arm. I have to exercise it morning and night to keep it under control and wear a sleeve. The only good thing is once radiation is over it should sibside, or I should be able to manage it. It came on the first few days of radiation and really got bad last week but a trip to the physial therapist has helped a ton. Other than that and the daily drive to McKayDee I am functioning almost normally and I love it! I never thought I would be so thankful to clean my own bathrooms but each time I do it I am thankful that I can. It's been so funny what little things we appreciate after all we have been through. We sat in traffic in front of Lowe's and Rick grumbled, as soon as he did I said," I am just glad to be here, all 5 of us!" He frequently makes the same comments when we do things we haven't been able to do together like go to church after all these months of them going without me. I thought we were thankful people before but we really are now.
Don't forget Race for the Cure is May 9th. The team name is Joggin' for Jugs and you cna sign up online @ www.komenslc.org. My last radiation is May 8th so we are hoping to make the race a party! Love- Shauna

Radiation!

2009-04-05T15:05:00.002-06:00

We are finally in radiation and it's so good to get going. I go every day at 9:30am to McKay Dee where I get "zapped!" They are very pleasant people to work with and they make the best out of yet another of the yucky requirements to get back to good health. I have no side effects yet but anticipate by the end of this week having "a sunburn." The area is much larger than I expected. It's about the size of a wash cloth, one corner even goes under my arm and onto my back. It's all pretty interesting. I continue to go to chemo for Herceptin. It's my wonder drug. There are almost no side effects. I especially like this month, I go on the 16th so there is only 1 treatment this month which mentally makes me feel better!!
The rest of the family are doing well, Josh has completely recovered from his appendix removal and Isaac and Megan are doing well. Rick is doing really well now that we are at this point. The kids and I are going to do some fun things together this week while they are out of school for spring break. It's so good to be feeling better! Love- Shauna

What a crazy life....

2009-03-24T09:49:00.002-06:00

We thought things were settling down for us but Josh had to get in on the excitement Sunday morning. Rick and I thought he had is weekly "Sunday Flu" coming on so we told him to get ready and get in the truck! He lasted 10 minutes at church (Rick drove him home) and when we called to check on him 45 minutes later we knew it wasn't the flu. I went home and checked on him and he pointed right in the appendix area. I said, "dang it!" and drove him to McKay Dee ER where he continued to get worse and after an ultrasound they confirmed it was his appendix. He was in surgery by 2:00 pm, it was pretty unbelievable to be sitting there for more health issues. Anyway, he did really well and was home in bed by 11:30 pm. It worked out so we could all get some sleep before going back to the hospital for radiation.
This did mean the 4-wheeling trip to Glamis was cancelled for Rick and Josh. They were very sad!
Radiation starts on April 1st, I think I got my hopes up when I talked to them on the phone and I just assumed that they would get me going on my schedule but it didn't work! I did get all the preliminary stuff done so I will just go for 25 minutes each day starting April Fools Day!
We sure hope everyone else is healthy! Much Love- Shauna

Radiation!

2009-03-20T20:12:00.002-06:00

Monday starts the radiation. I am actually anxious to get it going because then it will be 6 weeks and it's over. I have been feeling really good with the exception of the colds I keep getting and can't fight off. This one is either a sinus infection or ear infectionm either way my head hurts! My cough is very annoying especially after the surgery. You don't really want details it's just very uncomfortable! Anyway, I have been walking my 30 minutes every day and we have even gone for a family bike ride which was more difficult than I thought it would be but still great! Every day I am feeling closer to who I was before and I am so excited! Shauna

Still doing well!

2009-03-10T12:49:00.003-06:00

So, the last 3 weeks has been.... rough. I am feeling better every day. I have finally had the last drain removed (yeah!) but the Dr. filled my expander for the 2nd time, the pressure is unbelieveable. She said I am healing well and all that good stuff so I am glad. This has been one crazy experience along with all the rest. We are somewhat able to breath sighs of relief now that we are at this point, that is especially good for Rick, he was a nervous wreck but is much better now. I am cleared for radiation and we are getting the appointments scheduled but I will be off the schedule that I had set for myself. I wanted to start next week but it will be 2 weeks from today to ensure that everything is completely healed. That's just the way it goes.
Everyone is asking about the hair! The minimal amount of existing hair (and I mean minimal!) has grown a little but not many new sprouts yet. I got some special shampoo/conditioner and intensive hair growth therapy, no one really knows if it will do anything but one of my chemo friends says it has definatley worked for her. If it doesn't work it will get me back in the habit of shampooing my hair. It's been kind of nice to just loofa my whole body including my head, it's very quick too! HA!HA!HA! As soon as I have anything to speak of I will be sporting it! I am very excited to have hair that won't blow away in the wind!
The Race for the Cure is May 9th and we will be there! The team name is Joggin' for Jugs, it should be fun! Love- Shauna

The worst is over & we got the best news!

2009-02-23T12:26:00.003-07:00

My surgery was Wednesday, and it was as awful as you can imagine. It took almost the entire night to get ontop of the pain but once I did I felt much better. Within a few hours of that I was ready to go home. I have much more range of motion with my right arm than I had anticiapted so that is good. I have 2 drains which makes me look and feel like an alien. They will be gone Tuesday!!! I feel like I am doing well given the circumstance.
We got the best news possible on Friday for those of you who haven't heard, all 16 nodes were negative! The cancer was not visible to the pathologist eye during surgery but was there under the microscope. They did get clear margins around the cancer cells. The Dr. called and said this should make you so happy! Me and my pain meds were already happy when she called but I was even happier after that news!!
We are all doing better now that the surgery is behind us. Especially Rick! I made fun of him in the last post but I don't think I could have watched him go through this type of thing, it's harder for the care-giver (in my opinion) because you feel so helpless. He and my mom have done great at taking care of me, and so many others caring for our family. The stress has been reduced with so much great support and such good news from pahtology. We are so thankful!
No sprouts of hair yet, I expect something in the next 4 weeks. Who knows???
We love you all so much! Shauna

Surgery Update

2009-02-18T13:52:00.002-07:00

Shauna is out of surgery, and everything went well. They say everything looks great and they didn't see any signs of a tumor. Great news! She is now in her room but is still in a lot of pain. They have given her more pain meds and are working on getting it under control. She will stay overnight and hopefully be able to come home tomorrow afternoon.

Wednesday...Surgery Day!

2009-02-17T13:27:00.003-07:00

Feb. 18th is my surgery and I am totally aware of how hard it is going to be but anxious to get it over with. For me it will mean I am halfway through all the awful stuff and that is a great milestone! I have not told my kids exactly how difficult this surgery is to recover from because right now they are not worried and I want to keep it that way. Isaac and Megan wouldn't understand anyway but Josh would work himself to tears. I don't want that. Rick is enough for me to handle. They all understand that I will be limited and uncomfortable.

Anyway, Rick is mad at life (I have been there) if he seems more grumpy than normal he's just angry and scared. For the most part I have moved past the anger and I am able to see the one road to get my health back, however unfair, this is it. I also am already looking forward to the reconstruction and know that what tomorrow brings in temporary. Just so you don't have to wonder, I will have a tissue expander placed tomorrow that will be filled as much as possible. I should only have to have saline added a few times. What that means is it probably won't be extremely noticable especially as time goes on.
Cancer has taken away so many things, my health, my energy, and my hair. I am reminded every morning of what is at stake when I see my kids sweet faces, I am fighting for so much and it's all worth it. I have my moments when it weighs heavy on me and by the time I am done we will have had an entire year of really hard things to go through. But that being said tonight (Tuesday night) we are doing something silly to break up the awfulness. I chose to have a Farewell Party for my boob! Rick is not laughing but I think it's great! I wanted to have my family come over for a blessing anyway and decided to make it a party. So tonight we are making lemonade out of the lemons we have been dealt or what ever way you want to say it.

I need all the positive things that so many of you have sent my way. The emails, letters, cards, etc. I really do cherish what you send and from time to time totally depend on them to pull myself together and go on.

I will have my sister post something to let everyone know how the surgery went. Thanks for all your love and support! Shauna

Finally!!!!

2009-02-09T13:17:00.002-07:00

Wow! I am so happy to be feeling better I can't even tell you! That one was my last of the "bad" chemo's and it was exceptionally awful but I am feeling better now! I just wish my energy would come back but I have to be patient. We are preparing for surgery next Wednesday, no getting out of it this time! I am not exceptionally nervous (only a noraml level of nervous) because I have had so much time to think about it and get it straight in my brain! It is going to be hard but only for a while. I will be rid of cancer at that point and that is what I have to focus on. My oncologist expects everything to come back negative (which is a positive thing, LOL)and the best outcome possible. These are good steps in the awful ladder of breast cancer. Radiation will begin 3-4 weeks after surgery. That will be another roller-coaster but only for 6 weeks. I am so thankful for everyone taking care of our family. I am also thankful for those following the blog and keeping in touch with our family. You mean so much to us and so do all of your words of encouragment. I love it! Shauna

The Last One is all DONE!!!!

2009-01-29T19:52:00.003-07:00

We went to chemo today a little unsure if they would give it or not as I have come down with another nasty cold. They still did it! My fever was difficult to break on Tuesday night initially but I have some aggressive antibiotics and I am feeling better for today. Tomorrow I will go and get the last of the Neulasta shots and then suffer through the next week and hopefully be done with the hardest parts of chemo. We truly never know what to expect but we are definately hopeful. My Doctor couldn't have been more positive and enthusiastic about my response to the chemo. He said I was tough (even though I feel sort of wimpy right now) and that I have responded so well he expects great results from my surgery and lymph node dissections. We are still so amazed, relieved and above all very thankful!
So, at this point everything is still on schedule and will more than likely keep my surgery on schedule for Feb 18. They can always give me another Neulasta shot if blood counts are down! (I will be so mad if that happens!)
We are still going to be "hermits" for a little bit longer to make sure I can be as healthy as possible for surgery. I love all of your emails and can't begin to tell you how they lift my spirits! I am so thankful for everything everyone is doing and have done for us. We have such a long list of family and friends serving us it's so humbling and over-whelming for Rick and I to watch as so many family and friends do everything imaginable to see us through. There are so many things people have offered to do and we really appreciate it. We have been touched beyond words by the sweet things people have offered on our behalf and the constant requests to do more. If you could bottle up some energy for me that's what I really need!! LOL
Thank you to everyone for sticking with us on this. It is definately a long road to recovery! We love you! Shauna

I am stonger than nails... but not chemo!

2009-01-14T13:16:00.003-07:00

I wrote the last update before my 5th treatment and boy what a difference a little chemo makes! This one started out bad when we got to the Dr. all my counts were down except 1. I was surprised by that but soon found out what it meant when I got the 5th treatment with low blood counts, "WOW!: that was awful. I have my 3rd kidney infection and my kidneys have decided on their own to refuse to continue metabolizing insulin for the rest of my body (basically). The nurse described it as insulin pouring out before it can be grabbed so my blood sugar was too low. I have been very miserable since my treatment but have done much better today, Jan 14th. I have been in contact with the Dr. and the sugar should level out by this weekend in time for something else I am sure. They speculated yesterday when they checked my counts that they would recover enough to have the last treatment ontime which is good because I want it over so badly! This is one awful roller-coaster ride and I would like to get off!
I am going to see a surgeon today and will get a surgery date which I keep referring to as a "goal" because my counts will have to be recovered for surgery so there is some chance it will be delayed.
Anyway, we took the kids to Build-A-Bear before my last treatment so they could make something to snuggle while I am in the hospital for surgery! It was fun and important for me that we do something like that to help them as much as we can. Rick is another story, he is officially a mess! I keep telling him not to worry and he looks at me like, "have you seen yourself lately?" LOL Yes, I have and it's a mess, so for now we have agreed to pretend to be normal however he did not yet agree to stop worrying! LOL
I don't think I have been saying this enough but I was reminded today that everyone's focus should be on doing their self exams and getting mammograms regularly if you are suspicious or of age! My RS Pres. and Stake RS Pres. came and visited today and a ward member went in after being reminded by my diagnosis and they found a lump in each breast. She has had her surgery and begins radiation shortly, she did not have to do chemo BECAUSE SHE FOUND THEM VERY EARLY!!! I am going to have a girl party as soon as I feel like I can and we are going to learn together how to properly do exams and learn that it need not be embarassing or shameful to do your own exam, it could save your life!! Please do it!
One more Chemo to go!! Thanks so much to our family, friends and ward for taking incredible care of us! I am so thankful! Love-Shauna

Chemo #5

2009-01-05T14:20:00.002-07:00

I can't believe we are to this point already. Thursday will be my 5th Chemo. I have been feeling really good the last few days, and surprised to have some energy and to have so many "good" days! I really appreciate the continued support via email, text messages, visits, etc. Everything my family, neighbors and friends send really boost my spirits and I am finding that lifting spirits is a huge part of healing. This is such a long process that it's hard for people to understand how long it takes to be clear of it and I appreciate the way you have all hung in there with me because it won't be complete until OCTOBER, can you believe that? We will get there no matter what.
Some neighbors who have gone through cancer treatments with their daughter (among many other trials) brought us this quote and I thought it was good for anyone in any difficult situation: "No pain that we suffer, no trial that we endure is wasted. It ministers to our education, to the development of such qualities as patience, faith, fortitude, and humility. All that we suffer and all that we endure especially when we endure it patiently, builds our characters, purifies our hearts, and expands our souls, and makes us more tender and charitable, more worthy to be called the children of God, and it is through sorrow and suffering, toil and tribulation that we gain the education that we came here to acquire." - Orson Whitney
I think this is a great reminder why we go through all the trials of life large or small and the people you will meet as a result. I have this quote on my night stand so every day I can remember why I am doing all this hard stuff and those who are going through it with me. None of us can choose our trials but these words make it easier to keep focused on each task and the end goal.
My kids are doing fairly well, each day that I feel good is a day they can forget for a minute. It's sobering to hear your child pray that your cancer will go away, "cancer" is a word that children shouldn't have to speak. Megan asked me, "when are you going to feel better, mommy?" She stressed the "when." It's a very long time for all of us especially a 4 year old. It's amazing the people who enter into your life right when you need them, a neighbor who is a speach pathologist just happened to visit and was able to give us some good advice and help us relax about Isaac's stuttering which began right when I was diagnosed. It's one more thing we can allow some time to see how/if it works itself out. None of this is easy for anyone. We are all in "survival" mode so anything that can be fixed with patience is most likely to be made worse until we can locate some patience. When we find it we will let you all know where! LOL
The Race for the Cure in Salt Lake is May 9, 2009 and is a 5K (from what I can find.) I will be walking it, Rick will be running with the kids in the jogging stroller. As soon as sign-ups are available I will get a team set up so everyone can register with the team. I am so excited for this one, I will be about 6 weeks from reconstructive surgery at that point and should be finished or almost finished with radiation. I will be so close to the end of the bad stuff. I hope everyone is healthy and doing self breast exams at the very least! (Aunt Kathy!) Take care and I write again after #5.
Much Love-Shauna

December 24,2008

2008-12-24T13:51:00.003-07:00

I hope everyone is enjoying their holiday. I had another rough time right after my chemo but I think I am re-bouding nicely. I hate to jinx it but I feel good today! I remember waking up at 2:00 in the morning yesterday and thinking, "I finally don't feel nauseated!" That was a really good moment. Anyway, we continue to get great news and comments from the Doctor each time we go and that is so encouraging. I know what I have to do to get my body free of this and I am very focused but it is really nice to think that some day I will be able to be through with it. I cry sometimes when I talk about the next 2 chemo's, and yes, they are that bad. But atleast this part of treatment will be over and I can focus on the surgery and radiation. My surgery will be around the 15th -20th of February and radiation begins shortly after. My hair should start to grow back sometime in March!!!! There should be a party for that!
We always strike conversations with the people around us at chemo as most people are very willing to share. We met a guy at chemo who was telling us about his radiation on his chin and neck. We hadn't talked about what type of cancer we each had but I found myself asking about his radiation experience. He mentioned how during the last 3 weeks it's normal for the skin to feel burnt right after. He enjoyed driving home with his head hanging out the window to get the cool breeze on his skin. I said, "well, that is a great suggestion but I have breast cancer!!." You have to laugh, even while you are at chemo! Don't worry, I'll just take ice packs with me!
Anyway, we continue to be brought to thankful tears by our incredible ward. They are so amazing. Everything we could possibly be over burdened with has been taken care of and then some. There are so many people to be thanked (with my chemo brain I can't even start naming them), but we are thankful for all of the service that comes our way each night in our family prayers. Please know that we are thankful for you all. I hope you have a Merry Christmas! Don't eat too much because we are doing the Race for the Cure in May!!!! (More details to follow.)
Much Love- Shauna

December 14, 2008

2008-12-14T16:18:00.002-07:00

Hi everyone-
So this time has been harder and I am just not getting back to "normal" like I have the last 2 times. I would rather get a root canal, IRS audit, or yearly exam instead of Chemo on Thursday. I definately don't feel ready for this one, I am sure it's normal at this point because it's nasty stuff. I haven't had as much nausea as I thought but all the other aches, pains, inability to heal from even the smallest paper cut, etc. are more than enough. Truthfully, I can't decide which is worse, the chemo or the menopause the chemo has put me into. (The menopause was a little more than I expected.) I am thankful for the outcome I am having so I am trying to endure all of it but it is so easy to whine about the extensive list of ailments. I don't know if it's possible to get any better news than we got last time we saw the Dr. I expect through the last 3 treatments to just have lot's of "side-effects."
After Thursday I will have 2 more treatments to go, so I have to keep looking forward to the finish line which now seems within my reach. I never thought I would say this but I am looking forward to radiation.
I have had so much pressure removed from me by my incredible ward. This week I hit what is probably one of many low points and had to ask for help. Within 10 minutes of my phone call I had meals, a loving place for my kids to play and people coming to clean. It was one of many humbling days as I watched these sweet neighbors do all the things that I pride myself in doing each day for my family. All I can say is they continue to be so amazing! I was very worried that the length of time until recovery would eventually scare off just about everyone around us but it hasn't even a little bit. I am so thankful for all the prayers, loving service, and help for our family. What a great time of your to reflect on the "angels" who have and will continue attending to our needs, the healing hands of the Lord and the love we have been surrounded with.
Much Love- Shauna

2008-12-02T18:22:00.001-07:00

After another cold and a kidney infection I finally feel like I am
coming out of the worst after my 3rd treatment. It wasn't any harder except for the kidney thing which probably means I am just not able to fight as well, and OK maybe it was harder!!! LOL I don't know how common kidney infections are but the Dr. wasn't surprised. I was a little because I am drinking alot! Also, at my last visit my tumor was undetectable!!!! I then asked what my chances are of getting clear margins at surgery and he said "excellent!!" Just to give perspective, there are 3 categories I could have fallen in. 1- 40% who have it shrink and be undectable (upon examination), 2- 40% who have shrinkage, 3- 20% have no change. I was really hoping to have atleast some shrinkage but have somehow been blessed and have fallen into the category I was afraid to hope for! It is undetectable. I can't describe the emotion of all of that. We spend time at chemo with so many who are not having a good outcome and I cry many times for them. I have been so blessed! I am having one of those experiences that I just can't describe yet because it's not over. But if I could tell you about each and every little blessing it would really amount to something amazing! My friend, Debbie Black, said this would be my greatest gift. (I love her but initially I thought she was "nuts!") Even though it is so hard and awful and will be for a long time, I have already learned she is right! Every day is a gift for me. I have not given deep thought to people actually facing life or death with their health (for a long time anyway) and to say they live differently is an understatement. So far, I am thankful for the chance to live a more meaningful life.
Thank you for your prayers, thoughts, and best wishes, keep sending them! My next treatment is Dec. 18.

Much Love-Shauna

November 26, 2008

2008-11-24T16:24:00.004-07:00

Happy Thanksgiving!

We are spending today at chemo, (yuck) we also get to come back tomorrow for the shot! Oh well, we are getting it over with. I will be half way after this one which is a great milestone. I have been feeling really good this whole time other than those first few days and have got almost all of my Christmas shopping done, decorating done, and even seen Santa with the kids. Rick and I also went to dinner! We have been normal and I am so glad to have had the ability to do almost all the things I normally do. I am not trying to be tough or keep up appearances at all, I am really feeling well almost all of the time. If it hits me now it won't seem like such a long time even though it is still quite a while. We are prepared for the worst and still hope for the best. We have so many people to be thankful for and for so many things right now, especially the help with the kids. They are our biggest priority and we love it when they are loved by someone watching them during the times we can't be there. They have really enjoyed every home they have gone to. That is such a weight taken off of us. Everyone around us (adults and kids) have contributed so much to making this easier and with all of our hearts we are soooo grateful! I appreciate every prayer and every time my name is added to the temple. It is so incredible to have so many people include you in their thoughts and prayers, we are forever thankful!

Love-

Shauna

UPDATE!

2008-11-11T12:32:00.004-07:00

I feel like I am coming back to life!! I have done pretty well considering that I got a cold on Saturday, the same day as the chemo hit. Saturday was pretty rough but my cold is going away so that is a good sign that I can fight it off. The nausea only lasted on Saturday and even Zofran seemed like sugar pills having very little effect.Oh well, I feel much better now. I have improved so much each day, the only thing that is slow now is my brain! I get dizzy and can't remember things as well as I usually do. Josh has been making fun of me, but the nurses told me the chemo infiltrates every place in your body including your brain and has to work it's way out, they also told me at my last visit "chemo brain" is a real thing. Several of my Doctors have shown us study's that show drinking lot's of water and walking 30 minutes on the tredmill each day helps improve the side effects of chemo so that's what I do to work it through faster and so far I think it's helping. At my last Doc. visit he did an examination and said, "that almost feels like normal breast tisue!" This is really important to note for several reasons 1- it comes from a Dr. who never says anything positive, and 2- the chemo appears to beworking and breaking the tumor down. I might be reading more into it than he intended at least we know that the chemo is working and I felt these were good comments! As for all of you surrounding us, I am so thankful for every little thing that you do and say on our behalf. I am so thankful for each of you who have helped with the kids and brought meals and said prayers. I am so thankful for each person who has interacted with me and made me feel so normal even though I don't look normal anymore. I love and appreciate you all. Love- Shauna

"Strength to do battle begins with enlisting the strength of God." - Pres. Hinckley

Novemeber 8, 2008 update:

2008-11-08T09:09:00.001-07:00

I did chemo on Thursday, it still took about 6 hours by the time I saw the Doctor and got "every last drop" of chemo! I thought it was going to speed up but it won't. Oh well, only 4 more to go!!! I was happily wearing a blue hat that says in red stitching, "CHEMO SUCKS!" My blood counts and general health is very good, the doctor even said I did "amazingly well!" I hope to keep it up. Tomorrow the Neulasta shot will kick in and that is uncomfortable in every bone of my body but the aches go away within 48 hours. Then the other stuff will begin. I hope it only lasts a week like last time but we are prepared for anything. Thanks to everyone who continues to support our family, we can't do it without all of you!!! Much Love- Shauna

My Twin!

2008-11-04T12:05:00.005-07:00

When someone you love is faced with hardships, as a family it is hard enough to watch them suffer. It is even harder when you live far away from them at the time they need you most! Diana and I along with our families have really struggled being away at a time when Shauna needs us most. So each of us are finding our own ways to show our love and support for Shauna during her fight. This is a picture of brother-in-law Nate sharing his message with Shauna.

"We may be far away, but we're with you!

We love you :)"

My New "Hair Do"!

2008-11-03T14:05:00.003-07:00

It's more of a "hair don't" but this is the way things are right now. My hair started to fall out Thursday through Saturday in managable amounts but Sunday night wouldn't stop. So, as a family,we shaved it! Josh started out by saying, "shave it! shave it! shave it!" Megan and Isaac started right with him. It was a very positive experience for all with no tears until my mom got there! Rick was taking the bag of hair out to the garbage as my mom came in and he said, "it's all done." I had already put on my wig when she came walking into my room and said, "Rick said it was done." I looked at her funny and said, "it is done!" We laughed and laughed that even she couldn't tell it was my wig. It was very funny! Of course it's sad and hard and all of those things but there is also no way around it. I actually feel alot better with it over as I don't have to worry about loosing it or anyone noticing a bald spot. I truly think the worst part was the shock of seeing GRAY!!! Yep, I was more offended about that than looking like a prisoner in a prison camp. Anyway, this step is done and my 2nd treatment is this Thursday. I anticipate all the side effects to be a little stronger but I should be able to keep up with most things (I hope!)

Note: if anyone would like the "shauna" hair cut it's done by using a buzzer with a #1 blade and with your family standing right beside you!

We have so many amazing people supporting our family right now and we love you all very much. -Shauna

Update

2008-10-22T11:19:00.002-06:00

Wednesday Oct. 22, 2008

I am feeling pretty well most of the time but there are a few minor moments each day that remind me that I had chemo last week. I get a little tired and rest when I need to but try to stay on top of everything I can. For those who were aware I had my hip scanned last Friday and that has come back clear of cancer. I never thought I would be so excited to have arthritis in my life! It is a huge deal as there are those who do have it progress, usually to a hip. We are so thankful and relieved. We are keeping things simple at home and really working with our kids on hand washing and not sharing drinks which is hard for 2 four year olds, they are starting to understand germs a little bit and getting used to it. Even though my counts are OK right now, anything I catch can be much more serious with a weakend immune system. So for now I really truly have no appointments until my next treatment November 6.

Shauna Dunford

Today

2008-10-16T19:07:00.002-06:00

Hi everyone,

My appointment is over and I did well. Most of my fears have been conquered as I now know what to expect.It is very comfortable and the people are very nice. It's also easy to make friends and find someone to talk to, I have experienced this through all my appointments so far. The next few days will be more than likely just feeling a little like coming down with a cold, possible body aches, a little nausea but nothing too major...yet! It gives me the confidence that I need starting off and that is good. Now we wait 3 weeks and do it again! Just think, we are now killing cancer!! We are all in this together, I love you all for sending your love and support in so many ways. Keep sending it!!!! Much Love- Shauna

2008-10-16T17:11:00.008-06:00

This is part of the TEAM SHAUNA support!

We're missing some family from Vermont and lots of Shauna's new friends. With the bad weather on Saturday we decided to have a family breakfast instead of the "Race for the Cure" walk in

Salt Lake, to have the "kick off" of our Team.

We love you Shauna!

Update

2008-10-15T10:03:00.002-06:00

Thanks so much to everyone who came to help us move into our new home!! We could not have done it without all the many hands that came last weekend to help. We have accomplished everything we needed to do, everything else can wait! Our three little kids are our primary focus (other than cancer) and they are doing OK. We are struggling in some fairly minor areas as expected but doing our best. It has been my greatest wish to be a mother and it makes me even more angry at cancer for jeopardizing that blessing that did not come easy. Our focus in life has always been our family but now it involves enjoying every moment so much more than before. Thank you for all the emails, phone calls, cards, comments, etc. Each thing sent is so much appreciated and cherished. I know in the months to come I will re-read them for the added strength and encouragement I will need to get through each day. I can't thank you enough for your prayers and fasting on my behalf. If you have ever wondered if someone you pray for or fast for can feel what you do for them, they can! My anxiousness and fears have been calmed so many times. As for today, I feel really good (1 day before treatment). I expect to do well during this first round, but I am prepared for "anything." I do feel myself becoming a germ freak but that is what it's going to take to stay out of the hospital and as healthy as possible. It's going to be difficult! My spirits are good so far and I am ready to get going. I am sure I will "hit bottom" so to speak and have many difficult times ahead but with the support that has been shown to us we will all get through. Thank you to each one of you who have done so much and offered everything to us that we could possibly need at this time. We are so blessed to be surrounded by neighbors, family and friends who are all so positive and determined to help us win this battle. Following is a little exerpt from Elder Jeffrey R. Holland's Conference talk that sums up how I feel about all that is being done for our family at this time:"But when we speak of those who are instruments in the hand of God, we are reminded that not all angels are from the other side of the veil. Some of them we walk with and talk with—here, now, every day. Some of them reside in our own neighborhoods. Some of them gave birth to us... Indeed heaven never seems closer than when we see the love of God manifested in the kindness and devotion of people so good and so pure that angelic is the only word that comes to mind. "Rick and I have already experienced so much to be grateful for from so many people. Among many other things we are learning that there are many depths of grattitude. We can't express enough how thankful we are for all of our "angels." Much Love-Shauna

The Journey Begins...

2008-10-09T19:37:00.004-06:00

This afternoon Shauna, Rick and mom went to meet Dr. Hansen, the Oncologist. He was very nice and Shauna liked him. He took some time to explain a few things about the cancer and the type of treatment that would be best. Shauna has read quite a bit about her cancer and kept right up with the doctor about the different medications used in the chemo treatment. He whole heartily agreed that it was the right decision to hold off on the surgery and do the chemo treatments first. He was very pleased that Shauna is very healthy and want to keep her that way.
On Wednesday, October 15th, they need two more baseline heart tests, so they can monitor her during her treatments. The day after these tests, Shauna begins her first chemo at 10:15. She will have 6 cycles with 3 weeks in between, for a total of 18 weeks. Each visit will take 3 hours. If all goes well, she should have her last treatment the end of January.
Her "Team" (family, friends and new ward) is ready to rally! We can't tell you how much we appreciate all the prayers and love that have been shown to Shauna and her family. We know our Savior is with her, and his love from each one of you will sustain her, and see them through this difficult time. May I say, "Hooray!" to the Webb Lane Ward! What examples you have been, you have truly been amazing and we THANK YOU!

UPDATE ~ MSABC Walk

2008-10-08T20:37:00.003-06:00

The making strides against breast cancer walk is this coming Saturday, but because of the weather we have decided that we are not going to participate. It is going to be wet, cold and just plain miserable. It's more important to make sure Shauna stays healthy, so going out in the cold and wet weather is not a smart thing to do. Those of you who would like to still participate that is wonderful, but just to let everyone know Shauna and her family won't be there. Thank you all for your love and support!

2008-10-03T16:46:00.007-06:00

We can't possibly say enough thank you's to everyone who is coming to our aid at this time. Our family and friends and neighbors are such incredible people. I love all the emails and comments on the blog, the simple words you send offer me so much comfort and I truly do feel your love and prayers. Thank You!

This week beginning 10/6/07 I will be getting family life buttoned up (as much as possile) before my hair falls out the next week. Fun stuff!~ We will get back the genetic testing on Tuesday or Wednesday, we expect that to be negative but no one knows for sure. All it will do is give a possible explanation where the cancer came from.
Tuesday is the Joshman's 11th birthday! His football team made it to their first playoff game where they were defeated on Saturday. We had a great season!!!
Thursday will be the cleaning day at the new house: 607 S. Allison Way, (turn east off Angel onto Tylers Way, go east to Allison) I will be there at 9:00 after dropping off Isaac and Meg at pre-school.
Friday at 8:00am 2 Men and a Truck (thanks to some really nice guys!) and Rick's work United Team Mech. (thanks to some more really nice guys!) have guys scheduled to help and we are so appreciative to everyone. My thoughts are these groups can get the stuff to the house and we can have others at the house putting stuff away. Any willing hands are welcome anytime.
Saturday is the walk at Liberty Park and we will continue getting everything in order at the new house and we expect to stay there that night, anyone who can come we would love to see. Just seeing all our friends and neighbors I have loved makes me so happy. Many people have put alot into getting our home finished and we really appreciate all of the loving hands.

Remember to do your self breast exams not only in the shower but also lying down. My tumor is very large but is undetectable sitting up. Don't ever forget that! I am one in 8. For every 8 women one will get breast cancer. And 40 doesn't matter!!!! I don't want anyone else to go through this so check yourself. Much Love~ Shauna

2008-10-02T07:45:00.003-06:00

SHAUNA
Today your job is to enjoy yourself, your husband and your kids! Have a happy birthday and remember how much I love you! I wish I was there today, but I will be there around noon tomorrow, hopefully before your surgery. Enjoy your day and don't worry for tomorrow, everything will be fine. I will make sure your babies are well taken care of until you are home. I love you Shauna and admire you more than you know. I am so blessed to not only have you as my sister but also my best friend. I love you, Happy Birthday!!!!

DISCOVERING CANCER

2008-09-23T21:51:00.004-06:00

LIFE TAKES A TURN...

I had a checkup about 1 ½ years ago and my doctor did spend some extra time in the general location but moved on raising no real concern. I wish I could have known then. I have done some self examinations while standing up in the shower. That is all I remember hearing - That my lump was undetectable standing up. I can only find it lying down. It is also so deep that it is very hidden adding to the reasons why it has been “missed.” Once I noticed what I initially called “dense tissue” I was alarmed although I thought it would be a plugged duct or cyst. I never would have guessed.

I made my appointment which was two days later.

Throughout the next two days I became more and more worried as I realized what I felt was a lump and it was very large. I went to my appointment and saw the 2 masses on their ultrasound. My doctor asked to make appointments for a mammogram and ultrasound ASAP and I was more alarmed. I was afraid and upset. I had not told anyone as I initially thought it would be nothing. The nurse called the hospital for the earliest appointment which was 1 week out. She then told them the size of the mass and they got me in that afternoon at 1:00 just one hour later! When I left she hugged me and cried. “Oh $%@#!” was all I could think. When the nurse cries that’s got to be bad.

I drove to my ultrasound appointment and Rick met me there. I also called everyone else before that appointment as it was time to let them know that this was serious. I went to the ultrasound first and 2 cute little nurses asked a ton of questions and then disappeared to get the doctor. He came in and looked and said, “this doesn’t look good.” Then, to get a better picture of the situation, I had a mammogram. I had never done anything like any of this before. I knew I was turning 35 next month and was still not required to have a mammogram. Age doesn’t matter! The mammogram showed everything. 2 masses and the Radiologist was sure they were cancer. Rick and I were not given time to even catch our breath before the MRI and biopsy were scheduled. We then left the office and fell to pieces.

My mom had called and Rick gave her the news. We had to get ourselves home to my mom’s house. Everyone was being called and gathering there. We were beside ourselves. So much to take in and think about and still so much we did not know. We spent the weekend being together as a big family. We packed and moved our little family into my brother Randall’s basement. Life has a cruel way of bringing you back to reality. We had to move out of our rental home by the 30th and our new home was not scheduled to be completed for another 2-3 weeks. We completed out move that weekend before any impending testing and surgery.

It has been very wonderful, comforting, and helpful to be surrounded by my family and not be “alone” during this hard time.

Love

Shauna

2008-09-23T14:25:00.010-06:00

"TEAM SHAUNA"

ATTENTION: If you only have a little $$$ to donate please make all contributions to the

"TEAM SHAUNA CHARITABLE ACCOUNT"

Thank you!!!!

TEAM SHAUNA CHARITABLE ACCOUNT

2008-09-22T22:59:00.004-06:00

Charitable Account - TEAM SHAUNA

A Charitable Account has been set up in Shauna's name at America First Credit Union. Shauna does have insurance, however there will be substantial out-of-pocket costs over the course of her surgery and treatments. Shauna and Rick would NEVER ask for this type of help. As friends and family, we all know the added expense can become a big concern. Let's help lift the pressure of this one concern so that the Dunfords can focus on what matters most...

helping Shauna fight and heal in peace.

Rick said it best just yesterday...

I hope you don't mind me sharing but there is no better way of putting it!!!

Rick said,

"You know, nothing else matters...

Nothing matters more than my wife and having a mommy for my kids."

How to donate...

1. Write a check to "Team Shauna Charitable Account"

2. Take the check to any America First Credit Union OR mail to Randall Gorham at 1168 Hanline Circle Kaysville, UT 84037.

3. Get a receipt OR Randall will mail it to you!

A HUGE THANK YOU TO RANDALL GORHAM FOR TAKING THE TIME TO SET THIS ACCOUNT UP FOR SHAUNA.

YOU CAN'T BEAT A BROTHER'S LOVE!!!

ISN'T IT....WORTH IT?!?

2008-09-22T22:50:00.002-06:00

A shout out to the ladies...Get a Mammogram!

Shauna is only 34 years old.

Kinda makes you think doesn't it?

Age is no longer a determining factor...get a mammogram, it can't hurt!!!

Well okay it might hurt a little but I would imagine it is worth a little discomfort.

Early Detection: Do You Know The Facts?

The National Breast Cancer Foundation estimates that each year, over 200,000 women will be diagnosed with breast cancer and over 40,000 die. One woman in eight either has or will develop breast cancer in her lifetime. Approximately 1,700 men will be diagnosed with breast cancer and 450 will die each year.If detected early, the five-year survival rate for breast cancer exceeds 96%. Mammograms are among the best early detection methods, yet 13 million U.S. women 40 years of age or older have never had a mammogram.The National Cancer Institute and U.S. Department of Health and Human Services recommend that women in their forties and older have mammograms every one to two years. A complete early detection plan also includes regular clinical breast examinations by a trained medical professional. Monthly breast self-exams are suggested in addition.For more information about breast cancer, see our About Breast Cancer page or this Healthology page.

CHECK THIS OUT!!!
At www.cancer.org/MammogramReminder,
You and the women you love can sign up to receive a free email mammogram reminder that will remind you to schedule your yearly mammogram in the month of your choice. The American Cancer Society recommends that all women 40 and older get a mammogram every year, in addition to a clinical breast exam by their doctor or nurse as part of their regular health checkups. We know that knowledge is power, and we won’t stop until every woman understands how they can take control of their breast health.

MAKING STRIDES AGAINST BREAST CANCER

2008-09-22T22:34:00.005-06:00

October is Breast Cancer Awareness month...

All of Shauna's friends and family are invited to participate in the MSABC Walk.

"Making Strides Against Breast Cancer"

Event date: Saturday, October 11, 2008
Location: Beautiful Liberty Park, Salt Lake City

Making Strides Against Breast Cancer events have no registration fee and no fundraising minimum. These noncompetitive walks range in distance from three to five miles, and men, women, and children of all ages are encouraged to participate. All funds raised at this event stay here and benefit women in the great State of Utah!!!!

NOTE: We will be making TEAM SHAUNA T-SHIRTS so please let me know if you would like to participate so that we can keep you informed and get you a shirt!